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Notes from my journal
Updated! Notes from my journal Evidence of Academic Sharing & Transformations I know mainly because my father was a great police officer in my childhood community that I have the inclined abilities to listen and help others more efficiently. From my acquiring knowledge on life living, education and work experiences I only wish to share love of life and creative living in balance harmony with Mother Nature. As a child I saw a constant flow of individuals seeking advices, recommendations and social consulting from my father, who was also an accomplished instrumentalist for the Jamaica Constabulary Musical Ensemble. I have been giving advices on career choices as early as I can remember. Always it seems I have been steering others on the same path of educational happiness. Being a child of poverty, growing up on the West Indies Island of Jamaica has fostered deep desire to success out of the ghetto. In doing so I have built a network of career minded individuals in similar ideals and learning. While in Jamaica as a little boy I was in position of leadership compatibility and responsibility within the following areas of my local community of Rollington Town. For the Police Youth Club I made sure to bring many friends to each attendance. I was a member of the Sun-Teen Youth Club as their Disciple Officer. While attending Alpha Primary School I was an assistant platoon leader for the Boy Scout. Likewise, I was a School Prefect in addition to involvement with heritage drama assembly. Enrolment at St. George College, a high school for boys, in third form I was second in charge of the class, plus a full member of the local Kiwanis Club in which I was a mentoring big brother to the local orphanage named Alpha Boys Home. In other extracurricular school activities, I was an assistant to the seniors involved on the post-production of the school yearbook publication titled the “LANCE”. Engaged in studies at my second high school Dunoon Technical, I under went engineering vocational training to be a Machinist. I received an international qualifying examination result in an area of this field. After migrating to the USA at age fifteen, in the US town of West Orange, New Jersey, I started working as the Chief Machinist at age sixteen/seventeen for “Buildisco”, a local manufacturer of metal & wooden frames, doors & windows for industrial, private, and educational construction sites until the age of twenty. Duties included reading blueprints likewise initiating own conceptual design on operational temples for mass production and sales of manufacturing goods. In recreational activities in the local community of East Orange, New Jersey, I instigated a local soccer club and worked as a photographer for local government officials on their community crime watch youth awareness projects. While attending the local institution of higher learning, Essex Community College, I was the sport photographer for the soccer & the track team. Later I became a qualified member of these teams. In other areas of this institution school activities, I was a student liaison and photographer for the student life activities office. Duties included writing observational reports of accessing functionality and impact of student’s social participations in school proceedings. Other duties were photographing school events such as Pride-Day, Career Day, Black Press Day, Black History Month, the International Guest Speakers, Entertainers and drama production at the Mary B. Burch Theatre. As a student leader I wrote articles and edited photographs for Ecco, the college’s student printed media and Ecoolog, the student’s yearbook. I also engaged in photographic exhibitions on school spirit to strength students self-esteem through visual documentations on campus life. After repeating attention on the academic dean’s list for outstanding educational work, I transferred to the School of Visual Arts in New York where exceptional achievements in leadership abilities instituted the current ongoing student media “VO”, Visual Opinion Magazine, of which I was the photo editor and the advertising manager. In brilliant of creative design innovation, I also introduced the first CD-ROM yearbook for the School of Visual Arts as the 1996 yearbook Editor-in-Chief.
In further position as a student leader I helped initialized positive social policy changes for all students. One such example related to having broader and healthier diet of vegetarian meals in the school cafeteria. Being a working student in my chosen creative career, I was able to meet many networking individuals of interest seeking creative specialists in other areas of the arts. Thus, I was able to share the creative growth and wealth with fellow students and colleagues of the arts while I was seeking advancement on my chosen career. In the processing of my academic tenure, I had the opportunity to enlist in the armed forces of the United States Marine Corps of characteristic distinguished status of delay-entry to be an Officer of military commanding. After graduation from SVA, educational career opportunity was more appealing in the Far East. So after numerous photographic excursions and death defining activities as a New York City inline street skater, I left the Big Apple with a year and half stay in China, Hong Kong and Japan. In Hong Kong I was somewhat of a recognizable figure because of creative photographic project titled “Watch Dem a Watch Me” and other Illustrated exhibitions on graphic design for aspiring young artists. I was offered an Art History teaching position by a local Hong Kong Art Centre but unfortunately the USA immigrations policy in regards to overseas marriage dictated my return to the USA. Through community involvement, a vegetarian eatery was established on one of the smaller tourist Island named Lama Island in Hong Kong. I also worked as a photographer in China and Hong Kong documenting residents in their daily routine of living for the local printed media. With a short stay in Japan I was accepted into training Martial Arts where creative gifts and titled honour was given. Soon after returning to the United States of America with reserving career skills and a wife, I started working as a Civil Engineer for a Communication company with operational tasks of reading blueprint, land surveying and industrial constructions all over the state of Georgia. The strength of success, I wish to share in this position reflects the cultural diversity on learning attitude and knowledge awareness. In life many will undergo training to be an advisor but only a few are born gifted with this driven task to help each other on their journey of life and in living. I know with every breath that I take I am such a person. Through further example of my personal life I will share the wisdom on my years of marriage: My wife, a overseas British/Chinese national who married to a Jamaican. Now we are sharing the joy of a beautiful little daughter. Our union would never be as successful without full appreciation on partnership career empathy. The speaker on career growth must also live and show happiness in their career, otherwise all advising dialogues will only be heard but never be listened to, as actions of positive growth to be implemented into daily routine for success by others. In closing, I wish to state to the human brain, we humans are creatures of repeating behaviour which is a key processing function for the evolution on our higher reasoning capability. However, when repeating actions reflects no growth or upward mobility then life is in a constant state of stagnant chaos. The awareness and the wording on healing the fractures of our daily movements should stem from habitual perceptions by humans wishing to learn from those showing successful quality of characteristic humanistic growth as well as sharing and togetherness. This reflection should epitomize strength in foundation of family. To help my new family at Bristol University I am needed for this job. Also this permanent employment arrangement would be a guided step in assisting my long term career goals. Likewise, this position would support my other desire of relating advancing growth for art and music education at an international interactive level of knowledge sharing. I thank you for your time and assistance in allowing me the opportunity to voice my desire for this position. Please have a beautiful day. Goddess Bless. Sincerely, "Socrates's most famous philosophical ideas: the necessity of doing what one knows is right even in the face of universal opposition, and the need to pursue knowledge even when opposed." "Dear Mr. Steadyspear, Mphil in Philosophical Studies of Knowledge and Human Interests. Your application for admission to this University has been very carefully considered but I am sorry to tell you that it is not possible to offer you a place. Yours sincerely, Shideh Baines, Graduate School Admissions Faculty of SagE, University of Newcastle Upon Tyne" Ok… another letter of rejection, as we Jamaicans often say in these situations, "No problem." Still, there was an urging to know why? Maybe it was due to the philosophical thought of puzzlement. Let's see how it all began. I made extensive research on these many field of academic interests Photography, Philosophy, Museology, Musicology, Art Education, Engineering. After reading and reading about the selective education offering in the UK, telephone dialogues were the next course in communicating my intent for higher education enrolment for a MA in philosophical studies at the Centre for Research in Knowledge Science and Society at the University of Newcastle Upon Tyne. In such the philosophical contact details stated, "For enquiries and information for further information please contact Ms Julie Coomber Telephone: +44 (0) 191 222 7302 Fax: +44 (0) 191 222 7361 E-mail: julie.coomber@ncl.ac.uk the school's website: http://www.phil.ncl.ac.uk." There were four primary phone conversations before these written words. On my third telephone conversation with Ms Coomber, I was told "No" the department would not accept me on the grounds that the program is full. In reiteration I mentioned again my intention is not to start the sage program this coming academic school year but the following year. The logical thoughts on advance research studies is advance notice of academic intentions must also be giving as to help with the qualifying status of enrolment. In further inquires I requested information on the scholarship offered by the department but I was also told there was NO such offering. After I mentioned the scholarship information from their online identity of knowledge sharing at http://www.ncl.ac.uk/postgraduate/research/subjects/knowledgescienceandsociety/courses/25 "Typical Funding: the Centre offers one-year scholarships. External funding may also be available from the Research Councils, Arts Council, British Council, DTI and many large research institutions (eg The Wellcome Trust, NATO Research Fund, UN/UNESCO, Socrates-Erasmus and other European schemes such as European Commission Directorate General for Education and Culture, eLearning Initiative) which run programmes concerning the knowledge-human interface over a wide range of areas." I was now told by Ms Coomber this offering has to be made after the application has been entered for postgraduate research studies and the person of authorities is director Prof. Milan Jaros. On my first phone conversation seeking philosophical enrolment, I was told Milan Jaros was away at a recent convention. This regarding event of a convention featured knowledge and science of society. To avoid obscurity of internet spam mail, I was encouraged not to make contact with Milan Jaros, which I did not until I got this letter of unprofessional rejection. The second time I made inquires with Ms Coomber, I asked for the course identity numbers. This request seemed to be a difficult requirement but shortly the numbers were found and given to me for the student fee assessment. With the sharing of these numbers came a sarcastic comment from Ms Coomber concerning on the cost of my phone calls. The ponderment was would it be cheaper not to call? My reply was no… from calling in I am able to get the needed information in completing required forms much quicker than regular mail and as for email with the increase of spam often time important emails are lost. As case in point Ms Coomber stated she had sent me an email but up to this date I have not seen her wording of a replying letter. Carrying now the baton of prejudice on my enrolment for philosophical studies was Shideh Baines, a faculty member of the sage program. Of my enrolment to this program I find the rejection to be very dishonourable as well as very insulting and distasteful. As a scholar, I know a weaker person in pose of learning may suffer serious psychological scars from this wilful act of bias. Due to philosophical personal growth I am able to withstand negativity from ignorant personalities with egos on high of academic bliss. The magnitude of offence is concreted in the wording of the rejection letter. The wording of the letter stated "very carefully considered" this is a lie. In very fearfully consideration my legal name was spelt incorrectly in the letter, in very fearfully consideration a rejection sentence was posted to me. This sentence of dismissal was not post marked by the secretary or the director of the philosophical sage program but instead an underling of academic status signed this verdict, one I might add I have had no contact with previously. In the reviewing of my posted entrance application my names as well as my online academicals are given. Somehow all these information were overlooked in the "very carefully considered" review without prejudice. In the final phone conversation with the Centre for Research in Knowledge Science and Society, I was able to speak to the director of the philosophical sage program. My desire was a philosophical reasoning on the rejection but from the very first sound of his breath it felt like an old fool with the emotions of a pig refusing to leave a mud bath, so my why was apparent. After introduction of self, I felt his sorrow of picking up the phone, the next few minutes I felt the anxiety to get rid of me. Due to the philosophical nature of my posed intention, latitude was given. I asked why I was rejected and the director Prof. Milan Jaros stated the letter was very clear in the wording and intentions. I pointed out if that was the case I would not have to make another expensive long distance phone call for clarifying the philosophical importance. Again came the reply that the sage program was full and again I added that my intentions was not to start this year. I also mentioned that I spent the last three years in research on what academic road I should travel for my chosen career. In further dismissive tone I was told by the director Prof. Milan Jaros he could not make any commitment for the sage program of philosophical learning so I was not accepted and there must be another school that will accept me… goodbye… then there was the dial tone of my phone. Wow… I know life is hard but why do some love to make it harder for others. From martial art training I have been taught not to expect anything thus the news of rejections and acceptances are never a surprise. Yes I know my personal views in seeing this beautiful planet we call earth is unlike any other therefore it has become an accepted norm for reactions of frights. Due to the modern diction of social chaos my unique sphere of perception is often a reason of other's fear. Like the murders of Socrates, to develop a way of seeing knowledge this contemporary institutional structure of philosophical learning had murdered the passion of a scholar on the quest for insight of academic philosophical science, the Sage Socrates is turning in his grave from this horror. A philosophical director in fear of educational commitment… so a potential candidate for philosophical learning is not admitted for studies. Is this not a madness of ego in darkness of practicing evil rites and educational plight? One thing is certain it's is a very sad case of the directorship on international education at the University of Newcastle Upon Tyne. Philosophical
Scribe, To: L.T.
H.C. Kuijs GOOD-DAY, Date of start writing this letter was 04/29/2004, date of completion was 05/04/2004. On 11/03/01, my wife, who was 8 months with our child and I were involved in a car accident of which I am still suffering mental and physical pain even as I am writing this letter. There are many astonishing aspects of disbelief concerning my trauma. Viewing detail can be read at the following internet web page http://www.iota.tv/the_scribe/writing_project/index.html. Due to racial prejudice on the blackness of my family we are without medical attention as well as carries a social stigma stemming from the corruptions of Holland's police force and immigration policies. The social status of being an indigenous minority has fostered a creative contempt towards the dutch communal norms of racial prejudices. The daily situations of negativity my family and I have like wise continued to experience here in holland have produced anti-social patterns in my quest for human harmony in society. In the continuation of slavery by the modern dutch majority ruling, there is great sadness of prospective in the regular exploitations of indigenous minority for capital and national profit. The current actions and attitude towards full blacks here in the netherlands is one of evil intentions and interactions to the point of international breech on laws of human's rights. In "Holland Doctor" there are shocking deeds of medical malpractice to the point of Hippocratic breech, on full-black people… denying of medical rights is underlining reasons of fear and cautions on a social system in error of dehumanising the fabric of unity and togetherness as global community. See for reading: http://www.iota.tv/sv/holland_doctor.html Unfortunately, holland's latent institutionalising of greed and hate focus on the full-black Diaspora has crippled the morality of justice. Thus, the dutch pride flourishes with blood subsidy dripping from the veins of individual like my person. In the evolution of humanity how do we as enlighten beings put a stop to the inferior complex of hate and prejudice towards the discontent of our skin? An osculating thought for the victims of hate and racial profiling of belittlement. Without the paradigm of capital exploitation my resolution of discomfort are these intellectual choice of creative wording to document my life experiences here in holland as a full-black person, as a father, as a husband and as a contributor for positive growth in humanity. This sharing of thoughts and concerns I wish the future of our children learn the history of this country as well as the karmic energy of slavery. The indigenous tourist in wise should learn the practicing disguise of hate here in the netherland is tolerance for profit. Sincerely,
The Expression on the female from has had the mystic of repelling or attracting since the early dawn. as to when was the first dawn... no one really knows, but they can and will continue to speculate even after human kind evolve beyond the point of terrain living space. One thing is certain any directions of human blissful flight might descend or ascend there you will find the pleasure factor of human living as one of the driving force behind the economy. The human
natural from in its nude has undergone expressions to the point of censorship,
legal constitution and protection. At any level the expression of nude
as Art will continue to be a debate for social living. In my institutionalization
studies of Art I have had the pleasure and misfortune of witnessing negative
and positive expression of human nudity. For those
of Orthodox presumption closing your eyes or do not log on and if that
does not work, then never look at yourself in the nude again. To the child
in learning confusing Did you know
this saying, "once a man and twice a child"… But as we
get older we forget how to live thus becoming fools Truly, nothing is new under the sun life is an Illusion while many having fun. On my dialog… the only thing to say further is to be a child again… do some research on human living and Art. The beauty of adding a little more curiosity to spark the childhood patterns of repetitions and love. The choice of words expressed may not gives others foresights due limitation on their associated memories. Analytical
Thoughts A reply; Part 2 Then came
the silent… Do you think the Jamaica Sting stage show should continue next year? Or has violence tainted it and it should be shut down? Animals
of Humans "I
BELIEVE" As I lay in bed I ponder about the coming dream, my eyes close a path stream somewhere every one knows, yet they forgot… dew to time I suppose. Sometime life cause mortals to lay down As I lay
I see the dream it about life and death siblings have fun, nowhere was
a sight of gun, through the dream the scenes Someone was
at the door. Losing
My Humanity "Rasta-
Me Not" Once when I was a little boy, while waiting for the bus a group of "Rastafaris" passed by and my grandmother asked my brother this question… would you be a Rasta, my brother stated no. Upon asked the same question, I responded quickly and sharply yes, my grandmother immediately said to me, you where not going to amount to anything in life. Looking back at that day I find humor in the pose, for the doctrine of that identity had not yet being a subject of my brainstorming. It was in later year that I would overstand the meaning of that that day as well as grasped the fullness of what is religious ideology. A human can interpret the "none" movement of a stone and there will be a multitude of other humans readily seeking to follow. Some may ponder long and hard about their decision before becoming new members, while others may claim an epiphany of seeing beyond the stone. Like all
Identity it's a giving, the hard part about living is the choosing from
the many that are giving. I see the human form before the identity words,
thus there is no need to add illusions to my inner being of form. Reading
Between the Vibes I felt an in balance in vibration of life, but did not know someone very close to me would lose their life. A friend, a brother, my cousin, his name Michael A. Parkes, a departing visitor of Mother Earth. I missed
you my friend, stay smiling wherever you may be The blame
of his death is not terrorist in the middle East No need to be sorry, that's one of the reasons for misunderstanding, there is so much unnecessary usage of words and intents. After reading, and there is a thought which is not clear, the better option in living is, you might want to try reading over after few days. For some it may take years to obtain clarity The next time, maybe as you read you may perceive a more over-standing on the exhibitions of words. Thus, allowing clarity of thought with aging Too often a quick fix is some human's adoption, by vocalizing there ignorance in saying, sorry without fully analyzing the presented facts of exposition of words thought ideas. Extending
after the sorry is "I don't understand, would you be clearer".
The impotent standard of thoughts is quite challenging to relate to. A
blissful simplification of higher academic is too complex for most modern
neophytes. In
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